I am convinced that my genes are making me fat. I have always looked at my skinny sister-in- law with envy because she got the good genes. So I have been living in my pity world thinking I am fat and it isn't my fault.....my ancestors are to blame. Until I went to Taco Bell with my lucky gene sister-in-law. I waited for her to order first, so I could then decide what was appropriate. To my dismay, she ordered a chicken soft taco and an ice water! What happened to ordering 5 items because they are only 79 cents each!!!! I ordered one chicken soft taco too......the whole time panicking knowing I would still be hungry. We sat and ate and she took tiny bites and sips and then left 1/4 of the taco on the paper wrapper. What the h double toothpicks!!!! So I had to leave a small morsel on my paper wrapper too! Deep breaths, deep breaths, okay so maybe she is skinny for a reason. Dang it!!!!

Should I be offended that I was asked to be in charge of a weight loss support group? Did they have to pick the fattest lady to be the inspiration for the rest of the fat ladies? and honestly, did they think i could help solve a problem that I myself haven't figured out? well i did take the pitiful project on.....and note to self.....never be in charge of 40 fat women that can't eat white bread or chocolate!!!!!! The challenge lasted 8 weeks and the women that didn't need to lose weight actually lost the most... and me along with some other fatties felt so frustrated and depressed throughout the competition that we actually just gave up and gained weight. To top it off, I had to stand in front of the group to thank them for their participation and say "I didn't lose weight, but other areas of my life improved because of the challenge" Blah...blah....blah...yeah right!